You know...the whitish, wrinkly thing between one's ears?
Oh, right...a BRAIN! I remember now!
Anyway, mine seems to have jarred a few plugs loose, because I simply can't apply myself.
But, that's another matter. What's really important is that my brain seems to be on the mend, which is good. But, I still can't apply myself...and that's bad.
I think...
Anyway, just a short little thing to keep everyone updated...and to share this fun Blogthing.
You Are Cream Pie
You're the perfect combo of simplicity and divinity Those who like you life for understated pleasures
I haven't written for a while, so I guess it's a good time for an update.
Last week, I was walking through SUB by the elevators that go up the tower, when I spotted a $20 bill laying in the bank machine. I stopped briefly and looked at it, but I didn't take it.
Know why?
No, why?
Because I'd like to think of myself as an honest person. I could really use the money right now, but I didn't take it.
Is honesty truly the best policy?
This is what is ingrained to us from the time we're old enough to watch silly kids' shows on TV. Yet, there are those that don't adhere to this strict policy to the same degree as others.
I must admit, in recent history the truth has caused me a great deal of pain, hardship and stress, yet I keep adhering to this policy.
Is it programming? An ingrained knowledge of good and evil? Or simply a case of an intensely guilty conscience fed by some hyped-up sense of morality?
I don't know the answer, but I do know one thing: I'm not liable to start telling lies any time soon. It's just not who I am.
According to science the earth rotates at a speed of 465.11 m/s. That's quite fast when you consider that factors out to about 27906.6 m/min.
Yet, there are those of us who try to hurry things along.
We can't seem to grasp the fact that the world already spins fast enough, and us along with it. We more often than not want things to move even faster along the linear trajectory of time.
I suppose this is unescapable; in this day and age of near-instant communication and fast travel, we've come to expect that there's always a way to "get there faster" or "get [something] to [someone] right away."
I am apparently not immune; I want things to move faster, too. I should be happy with my place in life at this particular moment, but I want things to speed up a little.
Is this selfish of me? Perhaps, perhaps not; all I do know for certain is that it requres a great deal of mental energy to keep from thinking such things. This is often draining, but I keep going!
I shouldn't let something as simple as a leak in my mental reactor keep me down, now should I?
Feb. 24th, 2007 @ 10:56 pm
As much as I enjoy living in Edmonton, I must say:
the Public Works Dept. is staffed with @SSholes and morons!
That's right, you heard me.
Take for example, the other night. I was returning from an errand, and it had freshly snowed (big shocker, i know), and I'm driving beside a sanding truck. Anyway, it's going just fast enough that it's throwing sand against the side of my Explorer!
While I admit it could probably use a little paint in spots, I didn't need it professionally sandblasted by the City of Edmonton!
Also, on the subject of snow removal, does it really take THREE graders to move all the snow? Granted, on the major arteries it's probably necessary, but on the small roads, honestly!
Well, that's enough for now. Tune in next week for another hot issue...soup.
I suppose it would be best to start at the beginning.
I value my friends, greatly; I've always had a hard time making friends, so I treasure the ones I have. However, as the old saying goes: "21 days to make a habit, 21 years to break it."
The habit I'm referring to is the habit I have to spend a great deal of my time by myself, and this puzzles me; I'm a person to gets lonely very fast.
It seems though, that whenever I have time to do something (or feel like doing something) no one is around or has other plans or some other excuse. So, this leaves me back at the square one of either going somewhere by myself (which never is much fun for me), or being bored at home.
So, I guess it's not so much habit but circumstance that keeps me spending all my time alone. It's not that it's a major concern, really; I mean, I should be used to it by now.
I guess I'll have to start trying to arrange my free time and/or boredom schedule around those of people that I can associate with. This seems the most logical course of action to relieve my perpetual state of boredom...and routine.
Routine keeps the most sophisticated machines running, so there must be something to it too.
Well, Christmas was much better than I expected. :) I didn't get anything on my list, so there was no disappointments or agonizing anticipation.
What's even better is that it was all practical stuff; I bought the playthings with Xmas money. :)
Anyway, I'm still working continuously. I should probably be gearing up for the next term of school, but there's still plenty of time for that. Right now, I have a burning desire to go to a New Year's Eve party...Odd for me (I think), but I"m sure I'll have fun in the meantime.
Yes, it's been a while since I've updated (but don't worry, I was properly chastised by K-) so I thought I'd put a little something up.
Now that school is over, I can join (almost) every other student in working like a madman to earn as much as I can before the next term starts. Just my luck, also, to be working in a place where permanent employees leave faster than greased lightning. It's little concern, though; the money should be good these next two paycheques.
I just don't want to get screwed around. My fellow co-worker has told me he plans to give his notice, leaving a total of two (2) people to run my store. This means, either a) I'll be working extremely super-fun-overtime, or b) they'll be importing people from other stores to cover the difference. My guess is it will be option b...actually I hope this is what happens. The job stresses me out as it is.
As for Christmas, I'll be taking my total of 2.5 days off and going to Athabasca. I so rarely see my family, I don't want to miss out on the opportunity. I remain resolute that I will not work if I don't have to on Christmas Eve.
Hmm...well, then, things summed up:
-work like madman -short-staffed -Christmas with family
:) That's all for now. Signing off.
Dec. 12th, 2006 @ 08:57 pm
After discussing certain issues with friends, I have determined that they cannot (will not?) give me the answers I seek.
Therefore, I will be turning to alternate sources which will remain undisclosed at the time of this writing.
I also intend to focus exclusively on my intellectual pursuits. How will I accomplish this, you may ask?
Quite simply; I shall free myself of all unnecessary activities and items, therefore freeing up more than sufficient time for my intellectual pursuits.
What these activities/errata are and when they will be severed is still being determined; I'll be sure to remember to provide a summary at a later time.
I figured that I should at least publish a short entry, in order to attempt to keep up with the habit of regular writing. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------
So far, no major slips of emotional disarray; things seem to be progressing well. Those minor slips that I have had were quickly and easily resolved, and things were brought back into streamline.
Perhaps I need to reestablish my intellectual pursuits, with such things as reading, perhaps I'll get back into model-making; model-making is an excellent focusing tool, as all other stimuli can be removed and the only focus is drawn to the model itself, instead of using the model as a distraction for one's hands.
Yes, this is the best course of action, I think. At least it will keep me from mental and/or physical duress for the time being.
"Pick the fights you can win, bow out graciously of the rest."
Oct. 23rd, 2006 @ 06:16 am
Those who've been speaking to me on a regular basis over the past few months, whether via direct person-to-person communication or via an instant messaging program, may or may not know that I've been preoccupied by matters of the heart.
I use this term lightly, however; the heart is simply nothing more than a highly-sophisticated fluid pump. To think of it as anything else is backward.
I digress.
I'm not sure to whom, but I have used the words 'tortured', meaning "the pain or suffering caused or undergone," and 'soul', meaning "the emotional part of human nature; the seat of the feelings or sentiments," in conjunction in sentence form. Up until recently, I believed this simple conjunction of two totally unrelated words had meaning; this was in error.
As stated above, the human heart is a highly sophisticated fludic pump. Yet, primal instinct continues to have us believe that it's the center of human social conerns and interactions. This is also in error. It is the mind that deep down controls the human psyche; the mind itself can be a powerful tool.
Take the example of individuals of certain Eastern religions; they are able to control their bodies to such a degree that they can slow the beating of their own hearts. Taking the side of the argument of "heart as center of being," would the heart not want to protest its unwilling obedience to the mind, as this would "dampen its spirits?"
So I ask you: Should we really continue to believe that the heart is the center of emotional being, or simply a pump?
I believe it to be a pump. Emotional awareness (or subsequent control) must come from the mind first, before the bloodstream. All stimuli are first directed to the brain, processed, then acted upon accordingly. It's not a stretch to assume that this can and should be the same for so-called 'emotional attatchments.'
As I've told some, if not all, of the friends that I chat with regularly, I'm no longer going to allow myself to be prone to emotional attatchments, and I shall endeavour to approach all my future social dealings in the following manner:
-I will devote all my passions (read: "energies") towards my career and the friends I choose to associate with regularly -I will not waste my time engaging in activities devoid of efficiency (ie: going to the bar for no reason) -I have plenty of entertainment at home, so I won't go out unless necessary.
I believe that's concise enough for the moment; should I add anything to the above list, those who read will be made aware of the addition by the tag *ADDENDUM*.
By 'idling,' I am of course referring to the questionable-use endeavour known as 'chatting.' The method used to perform the endeavour, whether it be via instant messenger, internet relay chat, or telecommunications device, is inconsequential; what truly wastes resources on one's personal computer and bandwidth provided by one's internet service provider is the activity known as idling.
What is idling, you ask? It's quite simple, really: it's the act of sitting and staring at the screen, as if willing words to appear on it. However, this is illogical; the other party (or parties, as the case may be), may be preoccupied with other tasks or concerns, and therefore they are also wasting resources and bandwidth on their own computer.
All of this wasted time, energy and resource could be recovered, or not lost at all, via a simple method: informing one's chatting participants that they have much better things to do than to sit on a chair and stare at a screen.
To use a layman's term, this is a "catch 22"; many people prefer to communicate with others using this method. It is also becoming more and more common, as every computer on the market today is either loaded or compatible with an operating system where instant messaging software comes pre-installed and available for immediate use.
I know some of the less tactful people reading this article will lable me as hypocritical, but I believe it would prove my point by those people reading it in the firs place.
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